A FRESH EDGE OF FAITH in the midst of reality

Today, I am reminded of the journey, the challenges, the hope, and the determination that comes when one has a dream that is bigger than themselves. I think about my children who are working and going to college in Georgia. I remember my long journey of working and going to school for 20+ years… I wrote God & Coffee: in that order;; II;;; a fresh edge of faith in the midst of reality, in my 20’s while working and going to school full-time.

To anyone who is persevering amid the challenges of life’s daily grind, I encourage you from South Carolina; you got this!

CHAPTER TWO of God & Coffee: in that order;; II:    TODAY

Today I called Georgia State University with the simple plan of enrolling for classes.  It didn’t go quite as well as I had hoped it would though.  I was on hold for twenty minutes at a time, usually only to finally have a recording pick up and say, “We’re sorry, but the customer services representatives are experiencing higher than normal call volumes; please call back later.” I was hung up on by a machine too many times to count, and when I would finally get a real live person, they usually weren’t very helpful either. They, in turn, would connect me with their boss’s voice-mail, from whom I would never receive a return call.  Everyone basically told me the same thing.  Their memorized line in this movie of my life went as follows: (Script verbiage: person who plays this character has to be swamped, tired of taking phone calls, insensitive, and they must fail to put themselves in the other person’s shoes - - if they do all this they may earn an academy award in this movie of my life.)  “I don’t know who told you that you could go to school in August, but you can’t.  You can’t come back until January 2001 at the earliest.  I don’t know who told you that you could, but they were wrong.”

As this particular work-study voice bounced off the walls of my life, I drove. I drove straight down to GSU more determined to graduate than I had been two years ago.  Before the birth of my precious son, before I found out that life was in fact harder than I thought it could be, before I had realized that I did too much of what I didn’t want to do on a daily basis, before …  before all of it…

TODAY

Today I rose to the occasion

I stood and took a stand

Because suddenly my world

Just ran out of land

The sea had overcome

The waves within my mind

And today I made the decision

To live a life more kind

The kind of life I wanted

Was one of peace and hope

And the life I had been living

Had become too dull to cope

It wasn’t that I just woke up

And every day punched a clock

It wasn’t that my dreams and hopes

Overflowed and would not stop

It seemed that no matter how hard

I thought that the day was

I was tired at the end of it

simply just because

And If I was going to be tired

At the end of every day

I wanted it to be for a reason

That was worth a line in a good play

She rested for she defeated the depths of despair

she rested for she inspired some souls with immense

hope and flare

And Lord I know you care about

Even the sparrow as he falls

So Lord please hear my cry

And listen when I call

Today I’d like to take a stand

And break out of monotony

Today dear Lord will you help me

Live more victoriously

Will you take my dreams

And mount them up

Like an eagle as he soars

Will you take my negativity

And make me good unto the core

Lord I just can’t wake up every day rise

And then go back to sleep

That kind of life is a quiet life

And it hardly sounds a peep

I’d like to roar like a lion

Soar like the wind

Today I’d like to make a change

May You live your life

Within.

 

 Today, in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord.

Luke 2:11